SO... college has been great! I've loved all of my classes and enjoyed getting familiar with the campus and my roomies! I'm going to be completely honest, it's been hard. I've never had this feeling, this ache, in my stomach before. It's been rough since my dad isn't right there for me to call on the phone.
It was hard to see all of the other girls fathers drop them off, hugging them and kissing their foreheads, and wishing them the best of luck. It was like a slap in the face.
I guess it was a huge comfort how everyone in Grantsville handled the situation. When I told my room mates here about dad and how he passed away, they were all silent and stared at me like I was crazy.
I wonder if they even know how hard it is, or if they understand that all I want, is someone who will listen.
Maybe I told them too soon, but I just wanted to get it out there. I'm sick of it being awkward, or like a pity thing. I just want support and understanding.
This past week I've really enjoyed reading my scriptures and praying. It's been a huge blessing to me. Emily, Shaun, and I were reading them the other day and we stumbled across a story that reminded me of a situation similar to mine.
It was the one about the brothers who were trying to be missionaries, and everyone they tried to teach wouldn't listen. Then heavenly father comforted them and sent them out again. They continued to try and teach the gospel and pushed through all the rough patches. Finally, they were rewarded.
I feel like if I continue to do my best, if I walk forward with faith, everything will work out.
I'm excited to get to work with my classes. I'm excited to make new friends. I seriously can't wait until the day I feel at home here!
It's going to be great! :)
